Call Me Maybe by Cara Bastone
Author:Cara Bastone [Bastone, Cara]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Hachette Headline Eternal
Published: 2000-01-02T00:00:00+00:00
Chapter Eight
Wednesday Late Afternoon
Vera
I hang up the phone and set it on my kitchen counter face down. I stare at its case for a moment, a bright blue brick that blurs at the edges as tears fill my eyes.
Ugh.
Why did he have to say that to me?
I might have gone my whole life without thinking of myself from that perspective. Itâs such a lovely, generous way of thinking about something that Iâve only ever viewed as a shortcoming.
I turn away from my phone and leave it sitting in my kitchen. I put my boots on and grab my raincoat just in case May decides to get cute again today. I almost never leave the house without my phone but right now it feels necessary to be on my own. Truly on my own.
I wander my neighborhood on the cool, gray day, considering Calâs words. Maybe Iâm not a quitter. Maybe Iâm a trier.
The concept is nice. Itâs like Iâve been wearing a too-tight pair of jeans for years and Iâm only now sliding into a pair that fits me well. Itâs like I can breathe. Finally. But itâs too much air all at once and I feel dizzy. I should double back to my apartment, but instead I buy a cup of tea at a coffee shop Iâve never gone into before and sit in the window. Itâs an almost empty side street so I donât watch anything but the building across from me.
The word try rewrites my past. Everything looks different now.
I frown.
Itâs not just me who looks different. Itâs my family too.
Iâve had two phone conversations today, my mother and Cal. Quitter and trier. Ugh. Whiplash.
You canât quit everything, Vera.
Whatâs the leagueâs refund policy? You know youâre not going to go to more than one game.
Donât tell me youâre quitting nursing. Oh, Vera.
Are you sure you want to invest your money into this business? That doesnât feel like a waste to you?
Angry tears tighten my eyes. They come from an old place. A young place. I remember leafing through the rec and ed pamphlet as a middle-schooler, trying so hard to figure out which after-school sport Iâd like the best, knowing that if I didnât like it, my folks would hang it over my head. I think about my first day of nursing school, sitting in class and wondering if all the other students felt some sort of calling to the profession. I had wondered if I was deficient. If being unsure would mean I wouldnât be as good of a nurse as the rest of them. If I would put people in danger if I practiced nursing without it being the one, true passion of my life.
I press my sleeve into my eyes and when I pull it away, thereâs a damp pattern left behind that looks like two smiling mouths.
I finish my tea and head back toward my apartment. I kind of canât believe Iâm having such an intense reaction to this. Itâs such a simple adjustment to my way of looking at things.
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